Lights, buildings, hopes , highs, lows, and drops. I came in a child. What does this city do.. build you up , corrupt you, educate you, and throw you into life.
I wonder when I'm alone, about all the changes , all the "new" faces that are no longer new .. my new self and the damage I cant undo..
When I'm alone, I watch the fake stars, I try to forget .. but the problem is they left scars.. I wonder when I'm alone...then the voice inside get so loud, so I shut it up and numb it. Sitting in beautiful rooms, talking about a bunch of fools. Fools yes, not the males and the he's. That's just an old misconception. Blaming them always for the mistakes we make, for our soft hearts. It's not their fault. Its not his fault..
I let him do it , but he still did it . I was oblivious to the state of my heart. The kingdom was falling.
Because I no longer feed myself bullshit. Take it out and replace it with a pulse maker. Ticking my life away, because they're all the same. You think it's a problem when your sleeping alone, but isn't it a problem when it doesn't feel wrong anymore?
But then this one thing happens, and you start to feel like a kid again.. for a second though only..now I'm fully aware..but why would I go back to square one? Don't lie to me Adele, don't whine to me Lana. The next one will have to jump across all the mines I have planted. Survival of the fittest.
Mariam N
I wonder when I'm alone, about all the changes , all the "new" faces that are no longer new .. my new self and the damage I cant undo..
When I'm alone, I watch the fake stars, I try to forget .. but the problem is they left scars.. I wonder when I'm alone...then the voice inside get so loud, so I shut it up and numb it. Sitting in beautiful rooms, talking about a bunch of fools. Fools yes, not the males and the he's. That's just an old misconception. Blaming them always for the mistakes we make, for our soft hearts. It's not their fault. Its not his fault..
I let him do it , but he still did it . I was oblivious to the state of my heart. The kingdom was falling.
Because I no longer feed myself bullshit. Take it out and replace it with a pulse maker. Ticking my life away, because they're all the same. You think it's a problem when your sleeping alone, but isn't it a problem when it doesn't feel wrong anymore?
But then this one thing happens, and you start to feel like a kid again.. for a second though only..now I'm fully aware..but why would I go back to square one? Don't lie to me Adele, don't whine to me Lana. The next one will have to jump across all the mines I have planted. Survival of the fittest.
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