Death is such a weird concept that I do not understand. The more you think about it the harder it gets to comprehend. Where do they go ? Do they watch upon us? Can they see the pain...the aching they left behind, and how hard it is to move on ? How impossible it is to forget? How the dynamics will forever be changed? How smiles try to conceal broken souls, and how happiness becomes abstract..an unattainable goal? How they go away and steal a part of you and never give it back? Do they know?
Maybe they forget..I would want to forget. But how dare they forget! The days you spent, the moments you connect. All the times you sat for hours in silence ..just silence..because that's all you needed sometimes..too close for formalities..then you wake up one day, and you're just sitting alone.. in silence..two lungs ventilating.two others missing.. reminiscing.. sipping..
Broken people..you see them everyday..
When do you know? Do they really want you to move on? Will she let you open your heart once more and let go?
You meet, its unexpected. It happens. He plays games, and so do you.You deny it, try to forget it..it meant nothing. But you can't stop thinking about it, remembering every touch..every word. She makes him smile, but she can see the hesitation in his eyes. Torn. Your head wants it , but his wounds start to leak every time you come near.. then he starts to freak..so you have to make that choice.. you'd rather not..but the decision is a must. Because he can't handle that feeling again..too risky, too scary. And you have you're standards, and you have your friends, and on a potential disaster you'd rather just miss.. so you play pretend and you play friends.. because you've had your share and he has too.. and your scars are too scared to learn how to fall in love. Again. Stuck in the middle, haunted by the past..you waited.. he didn't meet you half way..so you'd rather just walk away.
How do you teach your heart how to love ?
Mariam N
Maybe they forget..I would want to forget. But how dare they forget! The days you spent, the moments you connect. All the times you sat for hours in silence ..just silence..because that's all you needed sometimes..too close for formalities..then you wake up one day, and you're just sitting alone.. in silence..two lungs ventilating.two others missing.. reminiscing.. sipping..
Broken people..you see them everyday..
When do you know? Do they really want you to move on? Will she let you open your heart once more and let go?
You meet, its unexpected. It happens. He plays games, and so do you.You deny it, try to forget it..it meant nothing. But you can't stop thinking about it, remembering every touch..every word. She makes him smile, but she can see the hesitation in his eyes. Torn. Your head wants it , but his wounds start to leak every time you come near.. then he starts to freak..so you have to make that choice.. you'd rather not..but the decision is a must. Because he can't handle that feeling again..too risky, too scary. And you have you're standards, and you have your friends, and on a potential disaster you'd rather just miss.. so you play pretend and you play friends.. because you've had your share and he has too.. and your scars are too scared to learn how to fall in love. Again. Stuck in the middle, haunted by the past..you waited.. he didn't meet you half way..so you'd rather just walk away.
How do you teach your heart how to love ?
Mariam N
Soulful. Beautiful.
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