Let our scars fall in love- Galway Kinnell

Let our scars fall in love- Galway Kinnell

Saturday, December 28, 2013

The cruelest thing in this world is granting false hope. Unrealistic hope..imaginary hope. A failed pregnancy. Hope that leaves u baron again. You think its going to get better.. that finally you will smile again.. that life will change in a way.. and although you are scared of change..you are willing to take the risk.Because you want to believe again. Potential happiness is an envious person's biggest target....and I marked it with an eye-catching red cross. I shouldn't have spoken about it. I tried to down play it.. but still.. it showed. But what am I saying, at the end of the day, I am the one to blame. For being too easy, too nice, too kind, for being who I really am. Which leaves me wondering who I really am. Am I actually that person I loath.. the desperate females..who keep trying to come whole. I thought I was whole..but I never was. Actions speak louder than words. If I was the main actress in a movie that I am watching.. I would hate myself. I would want to go up to her and give her advice. Honey, don't underestimate yourself. Stop being insecure. You have it all. You have it. Don't forget who you are, where you really came from, where you grew up. That is who you are. You are not them..and you will never be. A negro wanting to be white. This is no michael jackson. I am thankful for this, because i realized that I can actually care again. But i've learned another hard lesson once more. Just because he was the first polite one, doesnt mean hes not an asshole. He's a smart asshole. You've set your standards too low that a king could rise from the dirt just by slightly over achieving. That is your own fault. That is your problem. You are lucky once more, to have been spared the heart-ache. Cut it short, don't let it dwell and unfold. Complications no more, thank god for your family and friend. For your job, for everything. False hope you wont play me once more. I am forever in doubt.

Mariam N

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